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Under defeat

Honestly, things are looking pretty bleak.

I had high hopes that 2024 would be a bustling year for game development, but in reality, the amount of time I’ve been able to dedicate to it over the last four months has been almost non-existent. This year is proving to be just as rough as 2022 and 2023. My attempts to tackle debts since the 2021 lockdown are constantly thwarted by accruing interest and monthly fees. My weekly earnings aren’t cutting it to make an impact. It feels like there’s not even a glimmer of hope in sight.

Am I bowing out? I’d say it’s almost a sure thing. But just know that it’s not what I want! It’s just that the influence of the devil and his minions seems stronger than ever in our world today.

Two verses resonate with me:

But we, brethren, being taken from you for a short time in presence, not in heart, endeavoured the more abundantly to see your face with great desire. Wherefore we would have come unto you, even I Paul, once and again; but Satan hindered us.

DANIEL 10:13
But the prince of the kingdom of Persia withstood me one and twenty days: but, lo, Michael, one of the chief princes, came to help me; and I remained there with the kings of Persia.

In 1 Thessalonians 2:18, Paul shares his deep desire to be with the Thessalonians, even though he’s not able to physically be there. He really wants to be there to support them, but Satan keeps getting in the way. It feels a bit like my situation—I’m itching to put out new remarkable games for you guys, confident in my ability to do so, but it seems like there’s been a barrier holding me back for a while now. Why does money have to be such a roadblock in this messed up world?

In Daniel 10:13, Daniel’s story hits home. Daniel prayed for help, but even the archangel Michael faced obstacles from an antichrist-like figure for twenty days, unable to answer Daniel’s prayer immediately. Is God even receiving my prayers lately? Hey, God. You know how much my game from 2008 impacted people’s lives. I believe my new games can reach even more folks and spark their interest in the Good News and positive, impactful values, versus all the satanic crap we’ve endured through media in recent years. Help me make it happen. Please God, help me. I’m totally powerless.

All I can say is, I’m utterly drained, and I don’t have the energy to conclude this blog entry with my usual enthusiasm. Not today.

Mulling over the idea of initiating a personal campaign to refund DLC kits; although I haven’t sold that many. Please bear with me as money is incredibly hard for me to come by, but I’ll refund everyone once I’ve officially decided to quit.


2 responses to “Under defeat”

  1. blugem Avatar

    For my part, its ok to keep my contribution. This is small something for me to donate to help with the game cost. I enjoyed playing EE during uni and it’s a fond memory for me.

    1. Elder Avatar

      Thanks, blugem. At the moment, the status of Blossomsoft Games is ‘At a Standstill’ until my financial situation can be fixed. I’ll see if I can find a solution. I’m tempted to include “robbing a bank” in my game dev plans. In the past, I could easily dedicate 15 hours a day to my projects, but now I’m lucky if I can manage 5 hours a week. It’s the reason I feel under defeat.

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